There’s nothing like a late night/early morning pensive mood. You come up with one million seventy five thousand four hundred and one conclusions of life and seven hundred ways of approaching it :)
It is so hard to get to where you’ve always dreamed to be when the price is leaving all you’ve ever known, loved or cared for. However, it is in those transitions, and in those separations from everything that is so attatched to you, that God opens up the door of your dreams and says: “Run. You are free!” Let’s release all those things that we are so dearly accustomed to, and the people we are so dearly attatched to… Yes, it is hard, but the outcome will be worth it. Have faith. Live in absolute joy. Run.
Something that has been on my mind for quite a while…
We all, somehow, go through our lives trying to live so much, that we forget to live. Ironic… yet very common. We try to fulfill our emptiness with everything, or anything, no matter how degrading it may be. We TRY… However, during that trial and error process we often forget about the life that God, our creator, intended for us to have; Life in abundance, filled with a Joy that is permanent, and that does not rely on any circumstance, but is found deep within our hearts and our spirits, a joy that does not cease, no matter what chaos we may encounter. I have found myself with such an immense desire to live, that I lost myself and the true essence of living somewhere in there. I’m pretty sure I’m not the only one to whom this has occurred. I see it daily; we go on unnoticed because we are too busy trying… People are in a constant pursuit of happiness, and not only those who don’t know who God is, don’t have a relationship with him, or don’t know his love; but it’s within the church. We are searching for something to fill that void that only God can fill; and not only through prayer, sacrifices and his word, which will all lead to victory, but by truly seeking the holy spirit within us, using the discernment and the qualities that God has already placed inside of us, for we are his temple, WE are the church, and we are the body. (I believe all it takes is for us to activate, and wake up that sleeping giant…). When we learn to seek God with all that we are, wholeheartedly and in spirit and in truth (not mind and emotions), is when we will experience the happiness we deserve and we will have the wisdom to know what we must do so that joy will remain in us and our spirit will be edified. (Obedience is a major key… Although we may think something will bring us joy, God knows our hearts, and our mind is deceiving; we must trust God and be obedient to reach that true happiness…) Our joy will make God happy. He did not create us to suffer, Jesus did all the suffering there was to be done, we must now live in the freedom that he gave us, if we don’t, and if we continue to be bound by the mentality of this corrupted world, and sadly, at times, a corrupted church, then his death was truly in vain. We must renew our minds daily and ask Him to protect us from those mentalities that hinder us and corrupt our ways. I have often heard the discussion of the fact that we don’t want Jesus’ death to have been in vain, but what we don’t realize is that that is the very thing we are doing, throwing his sacrifice out the window. I believe many of us, including myself, do not live a life that pleases God to the fullest; we live bound and enslaved to the things of this world, to the things of Man, to rules and to restrictions that mankind has created and has labeled to be God’s “rules” or “restrictions”, when Jesus’ life, death and resurrection was all to set us free. All bondages were BROKEN in Christ’s death, and now it is time for us to free ourselves from our own corrupted and confused mindsets and the mentalities that this world, and those who surround us have placed in us, forbidding us to expand our minds and our lives, and to open up to receive ALL that God has for us. When we understand the real freedom we have been already granted through God’s great love is when we will begin to really LIVE. It is our turn to show him our gratitude, and our profound love for him. But hold it one second… I don’t mean a love that we produce with our minds by thinking that it is what we are “supposed to do”; but a Love that comes from the very depth of our spirits, a love that is not as easy as it is to say “I love you…”, but a love that would do anything and everything to achieve His pleasure, a love that is shown by our actions and our lives. One that if we do not yet own, we must ask Him to place in us and to help us create, because if we don’t have love, then we are nothing. LOVE SETS US FREE. God’s love has already done that, He has already unlocked those jail gates in the spiritual realm, all we need to do is open the gates and live in absolute FREEDOM. We must live to love, and love to live, because LOVE is the breath of life… GOD is the breath of life.
P.S.: To whoever actually read this: there is way too much on my mind to fully express it in words… please pardon me if I have obscured your minds :)
So I have never had any form of expressing my thoughts, either on paper or on any tenchnological gadget.. (unless it’s my journal in english class, but thats as much as it gets). I’m excited. I hope I actually use this thing :)